4/12/11

So, for the past day I have been keeping my distance from my boy - yup.. he's sick. I was told by my oncologist from the very beginning...if you hear someone cough in a grocery store...RUN!!! go the other way stay away from anyone who looks ill or coughs sneezes or just looks "not well". Tell me this, as a mom, how do you stay away from your child??? Not an easy task but he's been really good about staying in his room and away from mom!!! Thanks Buddy!! He;s doing much better than he was and I am ok - so far so good -knock on wood!!!
I go for treatment 3 on Thursday - not looking forward to the grossness that follows but as long as I am getting better I guess this is what I have to do - :(~
Can't wait to get some hair back and look almost normal. The people around are so rude - would you not think - that most women walking around with a scarf wrapped around her head...um..there may be SOMETHING wrong??? I understand the kids - and they rarely stare - its the old ladies that look at you like you are this evil spawn and shouldn't be allowed in public looking the way I do....F you!! I have not yet lost it but I have a feelling a year of this - It won't be very pretty!! And well to be honest - I probably won't say anything but if I do..I wouldn"t want to be around me :)
Ok, so my boy is making his first communion this weekend and I just hope my energy level is better than it has been in the past on Sundays after chemo!! I plan on taking it really easy and from what I'm told - eating lotsa protein should help...luckily my appetite is grossly great this week so eating is not an issue...still haven't lost too much weight so obviously eating isn't an issue very often!!!
Sammy had her 2nd father/daughter dance - look out for her in the next few years - she did not get her dance moves from her mother - thats for sure but my goodnes - what a beautiful little girl I have!! I am one lucky momma to have such great beautiful kids!!!
Will try to post after chemo but who know how I will feel.
Keep the prayers coming!! And just another thought before I go, my last blog was not meant to say I don't appreciate the fact that people think I am strong - believe me - its a challenge. I just don't want people thinking I'm a super hero of sorts - I definately have my moments of pure weakness- and I'll admit - they are mostly when I can see myself in a mirror!!! So as a good friend told me - i am allowed 10 minutes of pity a day - seems like alot and I don't always use them but when I do - I take more than 10 and usually cry myself to sleep - so, I'm strong on the outside - no mirrors allowed but i do have my very own pity parties - I guess that just makes me human!!!