Just because!!

So, today is my sons 12th Birthday - I may not post this today but wanted to get some thoughts in while there were still fresh in my head!! You know, they go as quick as they come in so I need to write things down all the time!!! I can't believe that 12 years ago I was holding my baby boy and here we are today still as close (if not closer) as that first day!! Thank God for my babies - they mean the world to me. This leads me to my "thought".
People are often "praising" me for how strong I am and how great I'm doing....yes...I'm trying like hell to stay positive and be happy....my kids don't let me forget that I'm a mom first and foremost!!! I think if I didn't have them it would be alot easier to feel sorry for myself and hide in a corner - although Greg may not allow that too often - he's another one who won't let me forget - Life goes on and so must I!!! And I mean this from the bottom of my heart - they aren't being jerks or mean and pushing me and not letting me rest - they are making me live!!!! They push me so I don't forget - this isn't just a fight against cancer - this is a fight to survive and teach anyone who wants to listen and learn that this is something that I am lucky to be able to overcome!!! I am truly blessed that this is what it is and not a million times worse.
I met a woman at chemo one day, she has pancreatic cancer - yeah - my thoughts too......but not hers!!!!! She said she was devastated when she found out but she did her research and found not one but a few doctors that gave her hope and I have to say - she looked awesome - not that I knew her before but for someone into pancreatic cancer treatmetn for over a year - she looked damn good and her outlook was wonderful - so she and I talked about NOT giving up and not giving in!!!! Cancer isn't what it was!!!! Yes - not all is easily fought but I think with the right frame of mind we can ALL make the best of WHATEVER is thrown our way - this is just another bump in the road in which I plan to keep traveling for a really long time!!!

Like I said - its my sons 12th birthday and my daughter will be 10 in June, do you really think I'm gonna let those two monsters live there life WITHOUT my input for a very - very long time!?!?!?! Really?? If you know me, my input is everywhere - especially when it comes to my babies :)