Here I am - a week and a day after my LAST major chemo treatment and I need blood. This does not come as a surprise to me though. I am grateful that the doctors are aware of the issues that go along with chemo and have ways to resolve them. Am I happy to be sitting in the hospital for 6 or so hours - NO, but I am thankful that in another day or so, I will feel like me - or at least as close to me as I can - for now!!!
Surgery is set - July 7, 2011 - its a Thursday and I am looking forward to it but I am also a nervous mess!! I hate the thought of being knocked out but I'm hoping for great results and they will get all the cancer and I will be free of this nasty disease!!
As I sit here this morning, the woman, who I've seen many times in the Oncologists office,l from the Cancer Society stopped by to chat. She told me how impressed she was with my strength. I never realized the amount or the strength of the chemo I was receiving - apparently it was pretty tough - which goes to show- I never give myself enough credit - I AM TOUGHER!!!!!
And, I will continue to fight!! A few days ago I may have told you differently, this last chemo has really taken its toll on me, I think all the past symptoms I felt with the last 5 treatments have come back. Its weird because each treatment there was a different result afterward - this one - I got them all and a transfusion!!
This week was My daughter Samantha's 10th birthday! I went to school that day and had lunch with her - fell in the bathroom and nearly passed out in the cafeteria afterward!! Happy Birthday Sam!!!
But - at least I made it through and put a smile on my daughters face!! So, yeah, I guess I am a bit stronger than I give myself credit for - thinking back to the beginning of all of this - I thank God - I'm on a downhill slope now and I look forward to feeling better and having surgery and just enjoying life!!!
A lesson to be learned in all of this, don't take even the small things in life for granted!! Believe me, being able to get up in the morning - go to work or school and not feeling like crap are major accomplishments for all of us - be thankful! I know each day we all get handed a bunch of BS but take it and smile - it could be a thousand times worse! Take it from me - I've learned - i try not to be that stressful person/mom/wife and it doesn't always happen but its a learning experience and one I won't soon forget! At least I hope I can remember how crappy I really felt and be thankful on those days when I'm tired and don't feel like doing anything but know that I can because I have my health back!!
As always, thanks for reading, good Karma and prayers are always welcome!!!
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