40 and so on....

I turned 40 before I could even think about it - there it was 40....how did that happen? I guess I was having too much fun to notice the 20's and 30's fly by :) I've been told, "it's just a number", "it gets better in your 40's" and a few other lines that I actually might believe. I honestly don't feel much older than when I was 25, I still like to party like I'm 25 ( a little, well, a lot less but still have fun).
I have 2 great kids of my own, 2 step sons, a mess of nieces and nephews, a great family, wonderful friends and the BEST husband!! I know I've said it before but Greg really does keep me going...thank you baby!!!
Now, the real reason for this post.....I have gone from being sick, complaining and on the road to recovery only to realize this road has not been traveled alone. I never realized how many people I have touched.
All my life I have been wanting to "save the world", make a difference, change someones life for the better. Well, I always felt like I failed a number of times, maybe I did but I think(now) that I just might have made a difference along the way. I got an email the other day from a friend that I have never met face to face. She used to work for a company that I would call just about everyday, and in those conversations, we became friends. She has since left that company but we "chat" every now and agan. Well, the email touched me in such a way that I will always feel like I really can make a difference. Here is the direct line from the email that made me realize, my blogs aren't just rants, and complaints and boo hoo, poor me...they make a difference......"hey terry - your blogs over the past year have gotten me through a number of dark mornings - i mean, if you can survive cancer, i can certainly survive too (not cancer for me, just upheaval)"

I feel good. I have often wondered, who really reads these blogs of mine and who really pays attention to how miserable I really have been?? I have touched someone with the way I am, not the way people want me to be but just being me!! Thank you Debbie O. for reading and making me feel like I can make a difference!!!
I hope you are not the only one who gets something out of my blogs but I am glad that you are someone who does and for that, I will keep posting and as always, keep smiling. It's not always easy but I like to smile so, I'll keep doing it :)