1 Year....

So, July 25th 2011 was the date that I finally had my BC surgery...this is the day that I consider my "anniversary" of being Cancer Free. I figure its the day that whatever was taken out of me and tested came back Free of Cancer - so this is my day to celebrate!!!! It's amazing how time flies, I sit and remember the day I was told, "you have breast cancer" and I recall the thoughts that went through my head, how was I going to tell my husband, my parents, my kids?? Who needed to know - who did not...how long could I keep it a secret and should I keep it a secret?? Obviously, I got over the secret thing - It got out and I needed it to be there!!
I am not going to sit here and recount all the horrendous memories, there are too many and I need to move on from the negative and be thankful that a year later I am here to talk about whatever I want to talk about!! The positive is always a good place to start....and try to stay!!
I think about the day of surgery and I think about what went through my mind and as I woke up - to my surprise was a friend I hadn't seen in probably 20 or so years....Adrianna....and Gina Marie - her eldest daughter - whom I never met but she was there to see me - in the recovery room - bald, drugged and looking like a scary old lady..hahaha!! I remember my mother in law, Irene was there, my husband Greg - of course, and my mom, well - she actually had my kids, Robert and Sammy so - thankfully - she couldn't be there - she was where I (at that moment) needed her to be!!
That day brings so many feelings, I was so scared - what if it spread - what if the tests come back and I have more chemo - what if, ALL the "what if's" - I am SO - beyond LUCKY - BLESSED - you name it - whatever I have done to deserve this miracle - I am more than appreciative!!!
Anyway - on my 1 year Cancer Free Anniversary - I went for my 6 month mammo - only my left boob - which is where the cancer was! Again- nervous and confident, I am a fighter and as long as I know I am ok - I will be ok!! The technician is a little lady who had done a few mammo's on me before and we have nice conversation - kids, schools, taxes, homes....you get to know the people who grab hold of your personals pretty well when you see them every six months or more often!! So, she says after the extreme pain I was just put through - "I'll show the Dr. and if they need more slides we'll have to take some more"........UGH!!!!!!! The feeling in my "body" is coming back and this was a very UNcomfortable day for me!! Surgery and radiation kind of numbed all sorts of nerves and a year later - they are screaming to be heard - and I will tell you - it was no picnic......thankfully - all is good - no more pictures/slides were needed and my "pictures" all looked marvelous!!!!
I feel good - swelling is still an issue if I "over - do", but I tend to do that more often than not so I'm used to being lopsided - hehehe!!!!And I was told I should try to use my other arm for things like weed whacking and stuff.....
Side note on the other arm.....I am NOT that coordinated with my right arm and using my left arm for such things that could potentially rip my legs off...um.....not such a good idea!!! I'll take the swelling - its quite alright - I am really the only one who notices - other than Greg - cuz , I'm like LOOK - MY BOOBS ARE TOTALLY LOPSIDED!!!!

So, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY - and a couple of days - TO ME!!!!!

I will try to post more often, I don't want to bore anyone with my normal rants and BS but then again - you don't have to read it!! So, I will post when I can and keep you updated on my life.....

Keep Smiling  :)