I need to let you all know - yesterdays post was not meant to make you think I am all upset and giving up - I'm not - by any means!! I promise!! I'm ok, emotionally too - for the most part. I have my moments but all in all - I'm pretty good!! I understand where my kids are coming from - I think!! Kids live in the NOW - they don't realize that tomorrow things will be different - some good, some bad, we as adults sometimes forget this fact as well - I know I do - especially when I feel like garbage!! Will tomorrow really be ok?? It may not be, but somewhere down the road it will be!! As for me - I need to continue to look forward - I need to be strong and let me kids know - The sun will come out tomorrow....LOL - sorry had to throw that in there!!!!
So Robert, if you read this - know that I know and I am trying to understand how you feel but also know -
I WILL BE OK!!!! Everyday and every treatment makes the cancer go away!! This is why we do these things - not so we can feel like garbage and can be tired and loose our hair - but so we can get better!!!!!!! I'm going to get better - you have too many years ahead of you that I need to be there for - hair or not - to yell and scream at your baseball games and totally embarrass you whenever I can, cuz I'm your mom and I'm allowed!!! Oh and Sammy - don't think you're off the hook - your the youngest and have many years just like your brother, for me to torment you just as much - maybe more cuz your a girl, a girl just like me and believe me - I know what your gonna get into - I was your age once - NEVER forget that!!!!!!!!
I love you both - to the moon and back!!!!!!
I know this is scary but we will all get through this - so lets keep smiling - OK?? Good!!!!!!
Rule #1- you never need to apologize for what you write!!!!
ReplyDeleteRule #2 - You are right.....there is no book or guide to tell you how to handle this with your kids.
Rule #3- You have a wonderful positive attitude- you make your battle easier for the rest of us to watch because of the way you face each day.
Rule #4- You have no choice but to continue this battle and kick that cancer's ass!!! We will not allow you to do anything selse but that!!!!
Rule #5- when you hair comes back.....and it will.....you will think back on all of this and know that you have set the bar so high that none of us will be able to match your strength!!!
I am so proud of you!!!!!
I am so proud of you too! Sometimes I look at Susan Keeney and think I can't even remember what she looked like without hair. Sometimes it hardley seems true that it actually happened. Donna's rule #3 says it all - you make your battle easier for the rest of us to watch because of the way you face each day. And... on the days your not up to being positive and strong,there are so many people who love you so much, right there ready to pick you up. I love you!!
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With support like this, I can do anything!!!! I just might write that book.
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