I often wondered as I was growing up what my parents meant by, "I hope you have 6 children just like you"!! Of course this was said while they were upset with something I had done or the three of us were fighting, so I can't be sure they were directing the comment to me or all of us!! I think probably to the other 2 - I was always an angel :) hahaha!! Sorry - had to say it!!
I now understand - somewhat - what my parents went through raising three - different children!! We all have similarities - in many ways which I'm sure wasn't easy on the parents either but we are all very different as well!!
I have raised my 2 children to the best of my ability. I have become my father, on occasion - which I have to admit - I never wanted to be - I now have a better understanding of my father and I appreciate the way he was with me and my siblings, I think I understand more now than I ever did as a teenager - Thanks Dad!! Oh and sorry!! I wasn't the greatest kid but I think I turned out ok!!
I have also become my mom, she was/is the sensitive one!! The one who let us goof off a bit when we weren't supposed to but she knew how to lay down the law too. I fear that what I feel when I ground my kids and am the strict mom that is just what my mom felt, UGH!!! Sorry mom!!!
I guess as kids, you're just kids!! You really don't have a care in the world, you get to do whatever, whenever and really who cares!! As the adults/parents watching this carefree - irresponsible actions, you cringe!!! I can not imagine what my parents, after raising my sister and brother thought as they watched me grow....from one stupid move to the next!! And the "I told you so's". I, too thought my parents were just old and stupid, sorry for that too!!!!! But now, as a parent, I see....I see all too well how stupid my kids think I am, and I honestly think back to all the rules that were laid out for me and all the rules I thought were just plain dumb, I see now - as I pray my kids will see, it really was/is for our best interest...it really is for THEIR best interest.
The world is not the same place it was 30 years ago, so I suppose it isn't the same is was 60 years ago either - when my parents were kids and I suppose when my kids have kids it won't be the same then....I can only hope the rules and regulations I have tried so hard to instill in my children will stick with them for a very long time.
I'm not sure why I started this post but I can only imagine one of my children ticked me off enough to have to thank my parents.
As the New Year (2013) is upon us and I have not posted in a very long time, I have tried to make the resolution of eating better and excersizing. This just might be the year that this will happen. We have had a tread mill for a few years now, it was in my bedroom in the apartment - it now sits disasembled in our basement, I have asked Greg to put it together - down there so it can be used.
We now have a 10 month old pitt bull puppy who needs to be walked - and so this too "should" help with my lack of enthusism to get up and move!!
I feel pretty good, considering! I think I need more iron in my system as I am often tired and don't want to do much - especially get up and excersize :) So, iron will be my friend, I hope!!
I have a mammo coming this month - all reports to date have been wonderful, I'm hoping to continue down this healthy road and as time passes not worry so much about every little twinge or pain I feel on my left side! I believe and have been told that the feelig is my left side is returning and the pain is just proof that this is true!!
I am jumpiong all over the place because there are too many thoughts to keep on one track - we have passed a one year anniversary of my mother in laws passing and it's been a little rough!! On Christmas Eve, Greg and I sat and shed a few tears - one year ago would have been the last time she was with us - in our apartment - laughing and having a wonderful time. She loved CHRISTmas, and those who knew her, know what that means!!! She's at rest but we all miss her everyday. They say it gets easier with time - sometimes I think, NOT SO MUCH!!! Missing someone is tough but when you know there is a long wait "until we meet again" it seems a little harder!!! I know she looks down on us and I can hear her giggle the way she would when I would complain about her son or get angry becasue I was frustrated with the decisions God had in store for me. But - all in all - I can hear her and that somehow makes me smile, I know she would be happy with how strong we have all been this past year and what wonderful changes we have faced and thought of her all the way through!!
The kids are taking down the Christmas ornaments and I will be moving the furniture back to where it was previously! The dog will probably not appreciate it but he will get used to it - as we all get used to change in our lives.
I believe that's it for now, keep smiling and of course - keep not just myself, but all your loved ones in your prayers. Maybe even tell them you love them more often than usual :)
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